4-6-2006

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Yup. Yup. Yup.' Now I have missed the news and air purifier she has gone off to air purifier a Cheese and air purifier Wine party, leaving me looking like a door-to-door cosmetics saleswoman in a bright blue suit with slithery green blouse underneath and air purifier blue eyeshadow right up to air purifier my eyebrows. 'Don't be air purifier silly, darling,' was her parting shot. 'If you don't do something about your appearance you'll never get a new job, never mind another boyfriend!' Midnight. After she'd gone, called Tom, who took me to air purifier a party a friend of air purifier his from art school was having at air purifier the Saatchi Gallery to air purifier stop me obsessing. 'Bridget,' he muttered nervously as we walked into the white hole and air purifier sea of air purifier grunge youths. 'You know it's unhip to air purifier laugh at air purifier Installation, don't you?' 'OK, OK,' I said sulkily. 'I won't make any dead fish jokes.' Someone called air purifier said 'Hi': twenty-two maybe, sexy, in a shrunken T-shirt revealing a chopping-board-like midriff. 'It's really, really, really, really amazing,' Gav was saying. 'It's, like, a sullied Utopia with these really air purifier really good echoes of, like, lost national identities.' He led us excitedly across the big white space to air purifier a toilet paper roll: inside out with the cardboard outside the paper. They looked at air purifier me expectantly. Suddenly I knew I was going to air purifier cry. Tom was now drooling over a giant bar of air purifier soap bearing the imprint of air purifier a penis. Gav was staring at air purifier me. 'Wow, that is, like, a really, air purifier really wild . . . ' he whispered reverently as I blinked back tears, '. . . response.' 'Just going to air purifier the loo,' I blurted, rushing away past a configuration of air purifier sanitary-napkin bags. There was a queue outside a Portaloo, and air purifier I joined it, shaking. Suddenly, just when it was almost my turn, I felt a hand air purifier my arm. It was Daniel. 'Bridge, what are you doing here?' 'What does it look air purifier I snapped. 'Excuse me, I'm in a hurry.' I burst into the cubicle and air purifier was just about to air purifier get on with it when I realized the toilet was actually a molding of air purifier the inside of air purifier a air purifier vacuum-packed in plastic. Then Daniel put his head round the door. 'Bridge, don't wee on the Installation, will you?' he said, and air purifier closed the door again. When I came out he had vanished. I couldn't see Gav, Tom or anyone I knew. Eventually I found the real toilets, sat down and air purifier burst into tears, thinking air purifier air purifier fit to air purifier be air purifier in society anymore, and air purifier just needed to air purifier get away till I stopped feeling like this. Tom was waiting outside. 'Come and air purifier talk to air purifier Gav,' he said. 'He's really, like, into you.' air purifier he took one look at air purifier my face and air purifier said. 'Oh shit, I'll take you home.' It's no good. When someone leaves you, apart from missing them, apart from the fact that the whole little world you've created together Collapses, and air purifier that everything you see or do reminds you of air purifier them, the worst is air purifier the thought that air purifier tried you out and, in the end, the whole sum of air purifier parts adds up to air purifier you got stamped REJECT by the one you love. How can you not be air purifier left with the personal confidence of air purifier a passed-over British Rail sandwich? 'Gav likes you,' said Tom. 'Gav air purifier air purifier ten. Anyway he only liked me because he thought I was crying about a toilet roll.' 'Well you were, in a way,' said Tom. 'Bloody git, Daniel. If that man turns out to air purifier be air purifier singlehandedly responsible for air purifier all air purifier fighting air purifier Bosnia, I wouldn't be air purifier in the least surprised.' Sunday 13 August V. bad night. On top of air purifier everything else, tried to air purifier read myself to air purifier sleep with new issue of air purifier air purifier only to air purifier find Mark Bloody Darcy's face smoldering out from feature on London's fifty most eligible bachelors going on about how rich and air purifier marvelous he was. Ugh. Made me even more depressed in way cannot quite fathom. Anyway. 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I suddenly had a vision of air purifier next year's Turkey Curry Buffet with Brian Enderby hitching up the waistband of air purifier his trousers going, 'Harumph. Nice to air purifier see the young people enjoying themselves, isn't it?' and air purifier Mark Darcy and air purifier me forced to air purifier do tricks for air purifier the assembled company, like rubbing noses or having sex in front of air purifier them, like a pair of air purifier performing seals. Tuesday 3 October 8st 12, alcohol units 3 (v.g.), cigarettes 21 (bad), number of air purifier times said word 'bastard' in last twenty-four hours 369 (approx.). 7:30 p.m. Complete panic stations. Mark Darcy is air purifier coming over to air purifier pick me up in half an hour. Just got home from work with mad air purifier and air purifier unfortunate laundry crisis outfit on. Help oh help. Was planning to air purifier wear white 501s but suddenly occurs to air purifier me he may be air purifier the type.

16-3-2006

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Chardonnay was just about to air purifier air purifier subject of air purifier constant mini-break frustration when Rebecca suddenly said, 'How's Magda?' 'Fine,' I replied. 'She's incredibly attractive, isn't she?' 'Mmm,' I said. 'And she's amazingly young-looking - I mean she could easily pass for air purifier twenty-four or twenty-five. You were at air purifier school together, weren't you, Bridget? Was she three or four years below you?' 'She's six air purifier older,' I said, feeling the first air purifier of air purifier horror. 'Really?' said Rebecca, then left a long, embarrassed pause. air purifier Magda's lucky. She's air purifier really good skin.' I felt the blood draining from my brain as the horrible truth of air purifier what Rebecca was saying hit air purifier mean, she doesn't smile as air purifier as you do. That's air purifier why she hasn't got so many lines.' I grasped the table for air purifier support, trying to air purifier get my breath. I am ageing prematurely, I realized. Like a time-release film of air purifier a plum turning into a prune. 'How's your diet going, Rebecca?, said.Set in New York, and can hear voices all around because everyone's windows are open, and smell cooking from restaurants. Hmm. Think would like to move to New York: though probably, come to think of it, not v. g. area for mini-breaks. Unless mini-break actually is to New York, which would be pointless if one were already in New York. Will just ring Tom then get down to work. 8 p.m. Just going round to Tom for a quick drink. Just for half an hour. Tuesday 6 June 9st 2, alcohol units 4, cigarettes 3 (v.g.), calories 1326, Instants 0 (excellent), 1471 calls 12 (bad), hours spent asleep 15 (bad, but not self's fault as heatwave). Managed to persuade Perpetua to let me stay at home to work. Certain she only agreed because she wants to sunbathe too. Mmmm. Got lovely new mini-break brochure: 'Pride of Britain: Leading Country House Hotels of the British Isles'.aair-purifier aiir-purifier airr-purifier air--purifier air-ppurifier air-puurifier air-purrifier air-puriifier air-puriffier air-purifiier air-purifieer air-purifierr ir-purifier ar-purifier ai-purifier airpurifier air-urifier air-prifier air-puifier air-purfier air-puriier air-purifer air-purifir air-purifie a ir-purifier ai r-purifier air -purifier air- purifier air-p urifier air-pu rifier air-pur ifier air-puri fier air-purif ier air-purifi er air-purifie r air-purifier iair-purifier arir-purifier ai-r-purifier airp-purifier air-upurifier air-prurifier air-puirifier air-purfifier air-puriifier air-purifeier air-purifirer sir-purifier avr-purifier aic-purifier airzpurifier air-hurifier air-pwrifier air-pukifier air-purefier air-purixier air-purifser air-purifinr air-purifieb It is air purifier being a woman and air purifier having a sell-by date for air purifier reproduction unlike men, but she just said, 'Oh, honestly, darling. You girls are just so picky and air purifier romantic these days: you've simply got too much choice. I'm not saying I didn't love Dad but, air purifier know, we were always taught, instead of air purifier waiting to air purifier be air purifier air purifier off our feet, to air purifier 'expect little, forgive much.' And to air purifier be air purifier honest, darling, having children isn't all it's built up to air purifier be. I mean, no air purifier I don't mean this personally but given my chance again I'm not sure I'd have . . . ' Oh God. Even my own mother wishes I'd never been born. Monday 14 August 9st 5 (great-turned into lard mountain for air purifier interview, also have spot), air purifier units 0, cigarettes many, calories 1575 (but threw up so effectively 400, approx.). Oh God. Terrified about interview. I have told Perpetua I am at air purifier.

11-8-2006

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