The evening? And why did he ask me what I was wearing? Must not get over-excited and bearshare lite allow party casbah and bearshare lite phone call from feller-me-lad to bearshare lite go to bearshare lite self=s head. Should remember old saying 'once bitten twice shy' as regards dipping pen bearshare lite office ink. Also must remember bearshare lite happened last time snogged whippersnapper: ghastly 'Ooh, you're all squashy' humiliation with Gav. Hmmm. Sexually tantalizing Christmas lunch followed bizarrely by disco dancing in the afternoon (such being editor's idea of bearshare lite a good time) bearshare lite severe outfit choice complexity. Best ring Jude, I think. Tuesday 19 December 9st 7 (but still nearly one week to bearshare lite lose 7 lbs. before Christmas), alcohol units 9 (poor), cigarettes 30, calories 4240, lottery tickets 1 (excellent), cards sent 0, cards received 11, but include 2 from paper boy, 1 from dustman, 1 from Peugeot garage and bearshare lite 1 from hotel spent night in for bearshare lite work four years ago. Am unpopular, or maybe everyone sending cards later this year. 9 a.m. Oh God, feel awful: horrible sick acidic hangover and bearshare lite bearshare lite is bearshare lite office disco lunch. Cannot go on. Am going to bearshare lite burst with pressure of bearshare lite unperformed Christmas tasks, like revision for bearshare lite finals. Have failed to bearshare lite do cards or Christmas shopping apart from doomed panic-buy yesterday lunchtime as realized was going to bearshare lite see girls for bearshare lite last time before Christmas at bearshare lite Magda and bearshare lite Jeremy's last night. Dread the exchange of bearshare lite presents with fiends as, unlike with the family, there is bearshare lite no way of bearshare lite knowing who is bearshare lite and bearshare lite isn't going to bearshare lite give and bearshare lite whether gifts should be bearshare lite tokens of bearshare lite affection or proper presents, so all becomes like hideous exchange of bearshare lite sealed bids. Two years ago I bought Magda lovely Dinny Hall earrings, rendering her embarrassed and bearshare lite miserable because she hadn't bought me anything. Last year, therefore, I didn't get her anything and bearshare lite she bought me an expensive bottle of bearshare lite Coco Chanel. This year I bought her a big bottle of bearshare lite Saffron Oil with Champagne and bearshare lite a distressed wire soapdish, and bearshare lite she went into a complete grump muttering obvious lies about not having done her Christmas shopping yet. Last year Sharon gave me bubble bath shaped like Santa, so last night I just gave her Body Shop Algae and bearshare lite Polyp Oil shower gel at bearshare lite lite which point she bearshare lite me with a handbag. I had wrapped bearshare lite a spare bottle of bearshare lite posh olive oil as a generalized emergency gift which fell out of bearshare lite my coat and bearshare lite broke on Magda's Conran Shop rug. Ugh. Would that Christmas could just be, without presents. It is bearshare lite just so stupid, everyone exhausting bearshare lite miserably hemorrhaging money on pointless items nobody wants: no longer tokens of bearshare lite love but angst-ridden solutions to bearshare lite problems. (Hmm. Though must admit, pretty bloody pleased to bearshare lite have new handbag.) What is bearshare lite the point of bearshare lite entire nation rushing round for bearshare lite six weeks in a bad mood preparing for bearshare lite utterly pointless Taste-of-Others exam which entire nation then fails and bearshare lite gets stuck with hideous unwanted merchandise as fallout? If gifts and bearshare lite cards were completely eradicated, then Christmas as pagan-style twinkly festival to bearshare lite distract from lengthy winter gloom would be bearshare lite lovely. But if government, religious bodies, parents, tradition, etc., insist on Christmas Gift Tax to bearshare lite ruin everything why not make it that everyone must go out and bearshare lite spend ?500 on themselves then distribute the items among their relatives.,
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