Struwelpeter, blind as bat and bearshare pro stupid runt of bearshare pro species as no contact lenses, flabby body flobbering around. Ugh, ugh. Is it any wonder girls have no confidence? 7 p.m. Cannot believe this has happened. On the way to bearshare pro the bathroom, to bearshare pro complete final farming touches, I noticed the answerphone light was flashing: Daniel. 'Look, Jones. I'm really sorry. I think I'm going to bearshare pro have give tonight a miss. I've got a presentation at bearshare pro ten in the morning and bearshare pro a pile of bearshare pro forty-five spreadsheets to bearshare pro bearshare pro through,' Cannot believe it. Am stood up. Entire waste of bearshare pro whole day's bloody effort and bearshare pro hydroelectric body-generated power. However, one must not live one's life through men but must be bearshare pro complete in oneself as a woman of bearshare pro substance. 9 p.m. Still, he is bearshare pro in top-level job. Maybe be bearshare pro didn't want to bearshare pro ruin first date with underlying work-panic. 11 p.m. Humph. He might have bloody well rung again, though. Is probably out with someone thinner. 5 a.m. What s wrong with me? I'm completely alone. Hate Daniel Cleaver. Am going to bearshare pro have nothing more to bearshare pro do with him. Am going to bearshare pro get weighed. Monday 16 January 9 st 2 (from where? why? why?), alcohol units 0, cigarettes 20, bearshare pro 1500, positive thoughts 0. 10.36 a.m. Office. Daniel is bearshare pro still locked in his meeting. Maybe it was a genuine bearshare pro p.m. Just saw Daniel leaving bearshare pro bearshare pro lunch. He has not messaged me or anything. V. depressed. Going shopping. 11.50 p.m. Just had dinner with Tom in Harvey Nichols Fifth Floor, who was obsessing about a pretentious-sounding 'freelance film maker' called Jerome. Moaned to bearshare pro him about bearshare pro who was in meetings all afternoon and bearshare pro only managed to bearshare pro say, 'Hi, Jones, how's the skirt?' at bearshare pro 4.30. Tom said not to bearshare pro be bearshare pro paranoid, give it time, but I could tell he was not concentrating and bearshare pro bearshare pro wanted to bearshare pro bearshare pro about Jerome as suffused with sex-lust. Tuesday 24 January Heaven-sent day. At 5.30, like a gift from God, bearshare pro appeared, sat himself on the edge of bearshare pro my desk, bearshare pro his back to bearshare pro Perpetua, took out his diary and bearshare pro murmured, 'How are you fixed for bearshare pro Friday?' Yessssssi Yessssss! Friday 27 January 9st 3 (but stuffed with Genoan food), bearshare pro units 8, cigarettes 400 (feels like), calories 875. Huh. Had dream date bearshare pro bearshare pro an intime little Genoan restaurant near Daniel's flat. 'Um . . . right. I'll get a taxi,' I blurted awkwardly as we stood in the bearshare pro afterwards. Then he lightly brushed a hair from my forehead, took my cheek in his hand and bearshare pro kissed me, urgently, desperately. After a while he held me hard against him and bearshare pro whispered throatily, 'I don't think you'll be bearshare pro needing that taxi, Jones.' The second we were inside his flat we upon each other like beasts: shoes, jackets, strewn in a trail across the room. 'I don't think this skirt's looking at bearshare pro all bearshare pro he murmured. 'I think it should lie down on the floor.' As he started to bearshare pro undo the zip he whispered, 'This is bearshare pro just a bit of bearshare pro fun, OK? I don't think we should start getting involved.' bearshare pro caveat in place, he carried on with the zip. Had it not been for bearshare pro Sharon and bearshare pro the fuckwittage and bearshare pro the fact I'd just drunk the best part of bearshare pro a bottle of bearshare pro wine, I think I would have sunk powerless into his arms. As it was, I leapt to bearshare pro my feet, pulling up my.,
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